updated my xanga. ahaha. it's been a loooongg while since i've last written an entry in that blog. funny really, that i've been one of those many people who signs up in almost all promotions in the internet -- friendster, multiply, livejournal, xanga and gmail. but i've never had a myspace account and the ringo.. and some other unnecessary stuffs.

before i forget...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUYA I

anyway, back to what's on my mind. can't believe i'm growing. that kind of freaks me out. i mean... i was just a kid back then; playing barbie dolls, making the piano my house and some other fun stuffs. can't believe i'm not anymore the kid who used to cook rice in a clay pot instead, i've become one of those million people in front of the computer searching the net. sooo much have changed. i mean... out of a million kids there may not even be 1 one of them who'll be cooking in a clay pot. no more disney classics. if not 3D cartoons, there's the anime. every girl kid seems to have been hooked up to cartoons that are completely not girly. anyway, like we all care?

aheheh. naisip ko lang bigla.

still deciding. UP or ATENEO. my dad and i had an argument yesterday, and i'm still not talking to him up to this moment but i slept beside him yesternight since my younger sister is not around. i envy her, actually. she gets to stay in the province for a long time without my dad giving a damn unto her. what i meant was.. i don't think he cares at all. that was MY opinion,okay? make your own if you like. by the way, the opinion is not based on how i'm angry with him today. not really based on that.

wonder what it feels like being in the province. siguro ngayon, kinukulit ko si ate tilay.. or we're already eating lunch. arrgh. i want to write something but i just can't. ahehe. ala lang.. nothing related to anything written in here. someone just pisses me off. oh well, i don't want to waste my time on her.

awww. you know what, may (sister) was uhmmm...consoling me yesterday while i was crying. how sweet, right? ahah. i hate her still. (OKAY, that was supposed to mean the opposite of hate)

there are just some words that i can't really say. like... definitions of some things and some words and phrases that are not often said like... okay i can't type them. but just so you know, when i say i missed you.. i really do. that came out from the heart (ahaha). that's the only phrase i can speak out.

speaking of mushy words and phrases... ahaha. let's shift it to people. oh yeah.. meron lang talagang mga tao na kahit anong sabi or change of tone, intonation and stuffs... hindi sila kapani-paniwala. ahah. totoo. i don't feel what they've been trying to say. like... ahaha. anyway. at meron naman na kahit gano kasweet yung sinasabi nila,.. nakakahurt..

is it really them? is it just me that there's something wrong with? teehee. baka nga weird lang talaga ako.

teehee. being weird is fun. hindi ko alam kung bakit may mga na-ooffend na mga tao pag sinasabihan ko ng weird... i tell you,, it meant positively.. i LOVE weird people. they're lovable and worth loving.

ahaha. shiznit.

kung anu-ano na mga sinabi ko.

MAEL, i miss you na.