omg. the heat has made me sick, and now, it's killing me. arrgh. i hate colds! i can bear having cough and fever and flu... but not colds. i was already packing my things a while ago - planning to go to the province - but i didn't have that much courage to tell my dad ... "pa, uwi na ko sa dolores. i can't stand being in here. manila is booring."

i have been in here for two days... two boring days, and i'm doing my best to escape boredom tomorrow. apparently, i can't because we're having a class party tomorrow at phyl's place. fine. fine. i'll go to the province on thursday. can't wait.

anyway, i have been talking to some friends, and they were like "oma, i've enrolled already in ust." "oma, i've pre-enlisted already" "oma, do you know someone who'll go to dlsu and wants to rent a condo unit" "oma, nagpamedical ka na ba". waaah. all college stuffs.

college hasn't really sunk in my mind. i mean. . . i'm still enjoying summer, and enrollment is still a month from now. so, i prefer to not think about it. college kind of scares me.

anyhoo, i kind of checked if i got a course in up... and i have a slot reserved in bachelor of arts (pol sci). kind of feeling guilty. i don't wanna tell my dad about it.... omg. i'm bad. i'm a bad daughter.

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MAGSUMBOL

MARIA ROSALYNN

ALILIO

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Bachelor of Arts (Political Science)

change topic.

i miss going to school. a while ago, i was sort of longing to have another recess with the long table. i miss tep and the way she bullies me. i miss rhoda, and all the green jokes and stuffs she's always thinking of. i miss every friend i have in holy. i miss training football, too. i miss sheila.

oh well, ima take a bath. ima soak myself in cold water for an hour or more.
putek! ang init.

was having colds when i woke up. god it was soooo cold yesternight. i even had a bad, scary dream. CREEPY. i woke up at 3:44 am and i just stared at the ceiling, thinking if it was just a dream or if it was something real. then i remembered that i was in my mom's room so i looked at my side, and there, i saw my dad and sister sleeping.

i kind of wish the dream was real coz i had a chance to hug my mom again. and i was crying and telling her not to die...ahaha parang totoo. anyhoo, hindi naman.

i miss everyone in the province. i mean, im not used to sleeping all by myself and without doing anything stupid. it's so different in here. i see the same old couch and people all day. arggh. and like any other boring days, it's soooo hot in here.

got to go!

this thing is booring.

back in manila. ahehehe. A LOT has happened in the province. had a great time, actually, although i have been wondering of how to do this and that. we bathe ourselves in the river where there are these huge rocks suspended in the rocky wall, and in order to get there, we have to climb it... and that's what you call... WALL CLIMBING. galing talaga. and fun fun fun.

more stories later.

so i'm up the whole night. slept this afternoon, then woke up at exactly 1am. and now, i'm craving for food, but i can't cook. they left me with only rice in the rice cooker... and all that is left for me to do so that i can eat is either i microwave a pack of popcorn or i dig into a can of ice cream. arrgh! how will i feel satisfied if those are the only choices left? i know i love popcorn and ice cream. they are my favorites... but admit it or not, when you are way too hungry, you'll be wanting a nice and prepared dish served before your eyes. i wish i could wake everyone sleeping in here, especially now, that my dad hasn't gone home (again). pero i'm trying to be a "changed woman" na e (ahaha itao!), so i'm "respecting" people who are having a nice deep long sleep (in this house) because they have satisfied themselves with the dish they have eaten for dinner. arrrgh! i also missed a lot of tv shows. i wonder why didn't any of them wake me up. they are used to waking me up while i am having a deep good sleep, but now, why didn't they try waking me up. arrgh! my tummy's already creating sounds only i can hear. i think i have to choose between the two: ice cream or popcorn.

i chose ice cream.

well, i'm not really fond of eating rocky road... but that's what my dad bought for me.. i guess i have to finish it. selecta, of course! (ayan a, ella)

i was texting some people a while ago, apparently, i think they have gone to sleep since the two left awake didn't reply anymore. talking to phyl a while ago, but she had gone also. no one's online.... so .... i'm left with no one to talk to and nothing to eat except for ice cream.

i wish i was in dolores. surely, there's something to eat in their fridge. kaya lang, for now, i think it will be better if i stay here for a while. my status has been really bad. some people think that i have done something not so good. so... you know, i have been scolded (well, not really). they've just talk to me (secretly) thrice or even more times. well, i don't think i have to listen to every word since i've already gotten their point...but i have my stand. i mean, i haven't done anything bad. not a bit. i know when i've done something wrong, and i very much know myself better. oh well, i think i still have to follow. i HAVE to follow. following means being able to spend your vacation in the province. so, if i don't follow... it only meant one thing... being stuck in manila for the rest of the summer vacation. ay grabe! anyway, nothing harmful if i follow. so i will.

change.

again, i'm singing disney songs.

just imagine me singing alone just to entertain myself. done with mulan's songs... next is ariel's, then aladin's then hmmm pocahontas's.

Scarier than the undertaker

We are meeting our matchmaker

Destiny

Guard our girls

And our future

as it fast unfurls

Please look kindly

on these cultured pearls

Each a perfect porcelain doll

by the way, i had my hair cut a while ago. teehee. i was like.. "oh my god, that was about 5 inches being cut from my hair." just imagine how short it is now. still layered but really short. it isn't boycut but i find it boyish. actually, i told my cousin that i could pass in being a guy. ahehe. but it isn't boyish too.. just too short. really short. oh god. i actually wasted 5 months of letting my hair grow that long. oh my god! i just realized i can't even have it in a half pony. oh no!

oh well, it's hot..and short hair suits for summer. so enough of the regretting-because-i-had-my-hair-cut.

i don't miss school. but i miss some people. i miss anne. i miss aura. i miss marga. i miss detdet. i even miss gem. i miss kar. i miss ella. i miss... uhmmm. almost everyone in the long table. actually, everyone in who sits in the long table. i miss mael, too. i know she's like ruining most of my mornings, but she makes me laugh really hard. awww. i miss her. ahaha. i miss the way she laughs at me especially when i'm sooooooo not in the mood to talk to her. awww mael! namiss talaga kita. good thing, she's texting me. texting me because she wants me to buy her a puppy.

chasing cars currently playing.

i remember myself singing that song loudly while i was with the class on our way home from the province (field trip). i was like shouting the words in my own tune. "if i lay here, if i just lay here" then some sang the next lines with me.

love that song.

but i love "collide" more. howie day.

it's 3:08 am. still not sleepy. but i think i should go. computer certainly won't make me feel sleepy.

had a bonding moment with ninong george. just sharing. although i'm feeling not that really good... it's nice to know that there are persons left to listen to you at the same time makes you laugh. grabe.. nabibilang ko na lang sila. 1, 2, 3, 4... and they haven't made me feel bad. never. it's a good thing i still have 4 people. 4 people who makes me feel special.

spaghetti. cards. sleepovers. lambanog. table tennis. serious talks. bookworm. half a million. cousins. candles. driving. cemetery. greenwich booth. missed hambujan. okidok. wake up calls. cries. ruiner. basketball. isaw. scrabble. chess. defense. shocking truth. water spills. secrets. mass. fish. fun during good friday. abstinence. meat. cheese shake. promises. hugs.

so... it seemed like i don't exist anymore, really. i lost contact with the world, and i'm just thinking how i can regain what i've lost, although there isn't any way i can get those things back.

anyway, i was watching amazing race a while ago... i wish i could join that competition. i want to travel around the world or at least to different countries. can't wait to be a 21 year old LADY.

oh god, i don't want to grow up. neither do i want to hurry growing up.

erase erase the can't wait to be a lady. waaaah!but i want to join the amazing race. i wish there'd be a season wherein they will allow teenagers... then they pick an adult partner.

although the temperature still sucks for it makes me sweat all day, and taking a bath seems not to be very effective to make you feel better, i felt happy as soon as i woke up even though i was awaken soooo early by my dad. finally, he agreed to enrol me in ateneo. i am so relieved and happy. god, can't express how thankful i am. coz i really am. ahehe. finally. i've confirmed my slot in ateneo. at last. ahehe.

here comes my dad. arrivederci!

april fools' day, but i haven't done anything foolish. not even a single prank. ain't that boring? i woke up early in the morning (9am) just to enrol for my driving lesssons (which starts on tuesday) then visited my cousins in fairview then ate lunch with them then slept til 18:30. if i were only in the province, maybe i have already done at least 3 pranks to different people. see how boring Manila is?

i wonder why some people are so eager to go in here. this place is polluted, humid, exhausting, and... the living in here is such a waste of money. to be happy means to get your wallet and spend some money. everything in here is bought. even happiness, i tell you.

but anyway, aaaah. ang init sobra.