i slept in gem's place for two days, and when i got back to my house i was a little uncomfortable with our house. weird, right? the itao family has been so kind to me. aheheh. they were very hospitable. ahehe. i get to talk to all of them and to mang clauds and mang zalds, who were all funny. there never was a dull moment. ahah. GEMMALIE, I SUPER MISS YOU NA. i felt like i was already a part of the itao family. ahahaa. i love yah!

anyway, today was the start of our christmas vacation.. and i started it badly. im currently sick. having flu, i think? and i hate it. my whole body is in pain. i am having a sore throat. my voice is husky. my muscles are in total pain. bad start! i am supposed to go to quezon today, but i found myself still freezing on my bed this afternoon (3:00 pm) and shivering even though it's brown out.

what is wrong with meralco?

waaah. 4 days left til christmas. my family and cousins and i will celebrate the christmas eve in tayabas, quezon. ahehe. cold!!! i'll surely bring thick jackets.

my left hand is partially paralyzed. hahah. hindi ko siya magalaw at some extent. hindi ko siya mataas at some angle. i can't rotate it. pero good thing i can still use it for typing. waaah. pano na kaya to. it all started last monday, akala ko the pain will eventually go away... but no, it's already sunday and tomorrow will be monday. mag-1-1 week na. waaah!!! pano ko siya gagamitin for aerobics marathon? saka.. waaaah. sana it won't affect the way i hit the drums.waaaah!

anyway, i'm about to win the battle. ahaha. the battle kung saan magnenew year. hopefully, it will end up na everybody's going to agree with me. :D

oh yeah. ouch!!! waaah. nangangalay na kamay ko.. gusto ko na siyang igalaw.

arrgh! masakit talaga. i can't even lie down in bed properly. :(

3 more days... vacation na! oh yeah!

9 days before christmas.

the schedule is on.

dec 18
xmas party with my friends in gemmalie's place
overnight at gem's place
dec 19
intrams (cheering day)
overnight at gem's place
waaah. i wish i won't forget what i've practiced
dec 20.
xmas parties (a. with the class b. with the team c. with my friends in rhoda's place)
overnight at gem's place
last training for the year 2006
oh yeah!!! so pano ko kaya pagsasabay sabayin.
dec 21.
dom's birthday. pano ko i-cconvince sila na dapat that date umuwi
dec 22.
dec 23.
xmas party with my cousins (not sure yet)
dec 24.
dec 25.

hmmm. basta i have to complete the 9 morning masses.

sana hindi kami magnew year dito sa manila. well, i know that we have to stay here... pero we aren't complete this new year. so why do we have to get stuck in here and wait for the new year's eve... tas ako lang naman gising.

12 more days til christmas. sigh. so... what is it that i'm going to look forward to?
christmas parties?
gift giving and RECEIVING?
sleepovers????
what else?
nothing's new. will there be something new?
another christmas? another new year? another sad celebration.

sigh. ayoko na magchristmas. lalo na new year. i wish i could just fast forward the time... dramatic mode. pero come to think of it? this will be the third year na nagcelebrate ako ng holidays ng hindi man lang nakumpleto family ko. so,, there's nothing to look forward to.

it's 12 days before christmas. 2 more days then 12 goes down to 10. pero wala pa ring nagkakabit ng christmas lights dito sa bahay... kahit christmas tree wala man lang nagtatayo. so.. the christmas spirit seems to forget to pass through our house. haay. malayo kasi bahay ko eh..

but i still believe in santa. i do believe in santa.

now i know what to look forward to...

santa's gift.

what will be his gift?

weekend was never been that fun. (pertaining to last week). you know, i get to go to different places without anyone controlling me and myself. wohoo! pero siyempre i got scolded for what i've done. bakit ganito? bakit ganun? questions like that. pero at least, i had fun. compared to my sisters who had a boring long weekend,,, i made memories.

ahaha. no wonder some really gets jealous of me. well, sorry for those people. life's not boring, so why get stuck at home, right? dyosko! you make your life. i make mine. so if people choose to make theirs boring... wag na ko idamay.

well anyway, hmmm. danica celebrated her 18th birthday with us (ninang arni, kuya i, manel, loi and me). woah! it was fun.. ahehe. i enjoyed. then as usual i was scolded after my not going home. eh sabi naman ni may wag na daw ako uuwi kahit kailan eh. i was just being obedient, wasn't i?

ahaha. that's life. you just follow. aheheh. NOT! why will i follow? well, i choose who to follow. ahehe.

okay, so months from now, life's going to be in its worst part again. hmm. be prepared? tsss. i will never prepare for it. it won't happen. oh shit! what if it happens?

NO WAY! magkakagera talaga.

dear god, i hope you help me win the battle. amen.

amen.
amen.

hmm. i'm looking forward to another weekend or vacation that will be full of fun... no adults. no restrictions. no limitations.. ahaha. people just have to trust me. why can't they? i am totally in control of myself! just trust me, okay?