god! i am just so sad. so sad. so so sad.

sigh.

i thought i was just joking when i said that.. but now i just found out that MY joke came true. good thing, i am born to live, coz if not, i might as well commit suicide. okay, let me clear it. I DON'T PLAN TO MAKE MYSELF LOOK STUPID. i don't plan to commit that pathetic thing. haaay. good thing, my mind IS still working. oh god!

sigh. i am just so sad. so so

sad.