Hello 2013!

Hello 2013! My tradition of giving thanks to everyone who made my year has been delayed because of the unexpected malfunctioning of my account. So now, while my nails are being done, I would like to thank the top 18 people who made my 2012 awesome. Thanks to: 1. Kliff Young, my boyfriend, of course (still is) since he is so patient with me and for making me smile whenever i'm hungry, dizzy or sleepy 2. Kokoy, my cousin who accepted me and still hangs out with me despite his busy schedule 3. Kuya Jon, my tito who unexpectedly tolerated my behavior 4. Kurt, my boyfriend's brother whom my boyfriend and i spent un-sober nights with 5. Celynn, my little sister 6. Sid, my nephew who makes me happy every time we see each other 7. Kliff's mom, who took care of me. 8. Ann(i)e, my best friend, who doesn't get tired of my tiring stories 9. Boni, my cousin, who after discovering my mishaps, doesn't care 10. Patrick, my friend, whom I call whenever I'm bored 11. Armand, another friend I call when I can't contact Patrick 12. Tanya, my law school friend, who helped me go through my new school 13. Mich, my law school friend, who I call whenever I need someone who'll be absent with me whenever I don't wanna go to school 14. Dom, my cousin also, because I know that no matter what, he'll always be there 15. Aj, my other cousin, who I know cares for me sooo much 16. Njae, my neice, who I play with whenever I wanna be a child again 17. The universe, my new god, for always listening to me 18. Mr. MJ, for making me happy 2012 was an awesome year. It's the year with the least travel, the most fights and the biggest stress, but with the people mentioned above, it was a year I learned a lot and I became who I am. No pretentions and no insecurities at all. I am happy that I survived the curse (the prediction that I'll die while I'm 22) even if my 23rd birthday hasn't come. I am glad I am able to keep people hard to find. I am happy I am able to seal the bonds of our relationships. So long 2012. Hello 2013... I hope this will be a grand year for me. Chop chop! -roma

currently at coffee bean tomas morato. fucking law school. it gives me headaches. it's attacking me more frequently. so here i am in a coffee shop waiting for my boyfriend who currently is talking with a business partner while i'm at a table separate from his and in front of a law book with tons of papers in my bag. i'm tired. law school makes me easily tired. i miss my cousins.

i was talking to one of my cousins (may) a while ago and it has come to my knowledge that we haven't met since my debut which was held 4 years ago. fuck life. i texted all my cousins from my mother's side and only 2 replied. more fuck to life. it seems that everyone's busy. now that we're all growing older, everyone,except for me, is working in different corporations. what's good in that? they're slaves of wealthy businessmen and if they stay there, despite promotions, they'll still be slaves.

why not make your own business? or why not pursue what you really want? i bet they don't like what they're doing. when i graduate from law school and after i pass the bar, i swear to god, i'll do what i want. i wanna pursue my artistic side, if there is any. maybe enter a dance class or a painting class. i wanna travel. maybe i'll work for some years in a law firm... but just for a few years, i'll save to be able to put up my own firm or make a home. i wanna be a housewife. i wanna be a girl who just travels around the globe and learn from different people, different cultures. i wanna see the world. i wanna learn more. and i think traveling will educate more. then i'll try to serve my country. i'll be a slave to my fellow countrymen. i wanna be their president. i'll apply whatever i learn. or maybe if i don't become a president, i'll volunteer as a social worker. i really wanna mingle with the people in africa, europe and different parts of asia. i wanna see the queen. i wanna learn how they became so influential and respectable.

why am i in law school, you may ask. maybe i wanna pursue this profession. or maybe i wanna make my dad happy and proud of me. maybe i wanna fulfill his frustrations. or maybe i just really wanna learn more.

socrates said that an unexamined life is a life not worth living... so in the course of my reflection, i discovered that these are things i wanted to do. so may all the odds be in my favor so that i may succeed and attain these goals.