approximately 30 minutes from 2012.

i can already hear a lot of fireworks from everywhere

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2011 was amazing. Not a single dull moment.

Thanks to Kliff Young.

I love him. I love 2011

Hi blog! it's me again, after a long time and while spending the best time of my life. I'm not doing anything productive lately, coz I quit law school (temporarily) since I didn't enjoy my first semester in San Beda due to the fact that I am always alone. I spent the best sembreak I've ever spent since i started schooling and at the end of it all, (the adventures, the fun and the trip) i got sick.

My first semester in San Beda College ended last Oct. 17, the next day Kliff and I flew to Bacolod to visit a friend, Eugene.

Here was my hectic schedule:
Oct. 18-21 : Bacolod
Oct. 22-24 : Bangkok,Thailand
Oct. 24-25 : Phnom Penh, Cambodia
Oct. 26-28 : Siam Reap and Phnom Penh, Cambodia
Oct. 28-30 : Bangkok, Thailand
Oct. 30- Nov. 1 : Dolores, Quezon , Philippines
Nov. 1-4 : Manila, Philippines
Nov. 5-9 : Dolores, Quezon, Philippines
and after that, I stayed again here in Manila but most of the time with my boyfriend-slash-future-husband

I wish I could tell you everything I did in Bacolod and my first trip abroad. I wish I could share every detail and how I ended up sick. For some reasons, I don't feel like writing it. Maybe I'm just lazy to do anything because I've been really lazy ever since I got free from doing the normal things to do. For the first time in my life, i am the only one deciding for myself, and since it's liberating, I really am enjoying it. I posted all my pictures I took when I went to the abovementioned places in my facebook account, and since I'm too lazy to do anything, I hope those pictures tell you the stories.

But then again, some experiences have not been captured in a photo so let me share one unforgettable experience in Bangkok. Kliff's aunt, brother and him had a fight with the owner of a trip club in Bangkok where girls put the pen in their vaginas, or pull a 5-ft. string with needles out of their genital while entertaining us. I thought we'll end up in the Police station and be detained in a foreign jail on my first trip abroad. But it ended well (not really), but at least we didn't pay the huge amount of money they were charging us.

I...
still believe in santa
can't save money
hate walking alone
am not allowed to drink coffee
love cookies and cream
stop crying once offered ice cream
love popcorn
walk like a man
once hated the color green
sing completely out of tune
have my own world
love pizza
don't want to be a saint
bite my nails when i'm nervous
can be friends with anyone
talk to strangers
can travel alone
was never good in any sciences
talk to myself
don't have my own secrets
have different kinds of laughters
want to be a supermodel
sing baa baa black sheep
want to have my own concert someday
seek for adventure
am amazingly patient
want to fly my own airplane
can play 5 different kinds of instruments
smile in front of the mirror every morning
am so lucky
got hit by a motorcycle on a christmas day
cry hysterically
just laugh anytime i want to
think im crazy


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right now... im happy with my life. happy without any reason. happy without anything to be happy of. i am not happy because i am already contented with what i have... i don't think i'll ever reach contentment, but i'm happy with what i have, who i have and what i am doing. so if i die now... i'd be dying happy.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry & only love knows why. When you decide to love, allow it to grow. When you promise to love, refuse to let it die. - I got this from my inbox in my friendster account, i don't know where the sender got it from.

my sister and i were cleaning the cabinets in her room a while ago, and i was amazed how clear my memories were when i saw some clothes and stuff i used when i was still a kid.

i saw my piano recital dress and my sisters'. i saw the pillows i collected and some toys. i saw my childhood pictures which are funny and disgusting. i saw pictures ive never seen before and was unaware to have been taken. and best of all i saw my mom's certificates and clothes.

hi mama!!! it's almost mothers' day, i hope you're happy wherever you are. i love you!
by the way, here is the most recent picture of me and my sisters + partners + kids

2 days ago, i arrived in manila from a vacation in boracay and as soon as i landed here, problems were already thrown at me.

now, people around me are also having problems and suddenly, i felt the need to be rich. almost always, i feel that dilemmas arise because of the small amount of income. my family, for example, is depending on just one parent who already has his own family and so his income should be split into two yet sometimes i feel that the other family is getting a bigger share of the pie. they already got my dad away from us, and they're still getting whatever should be equally allotted for us.

and so now, i feel the urge to be rich. i wanna win the lotto, and i hope god allows me to win one big jackpot prize. i want to help my dad by making him stop working. the other family already has a source of income (thanks to the business my dad put up) and by winning the lotto, i'll pay for my sister's huge tuition fee.

i want to feel financially stable and not anymore depend on my dad, and hopefully, i could put up a business and help my nephews and neice as well. i wanted to help other people too who can't afford to be happy because they're having financial problems too. like my neighbor, whose age is the same as my younger sister's ,who has to work in a fast food restaurant just so she can pay for her tuition fee. i can't believe it at first because her parents just bought a new car, yet she is forced to study in a school without much reputation even if she passed UST (one of the best in this country). i wanna help people, so god, please help me. i wanna pay for my own tuition fee and my sister's and some other people if i win that big money.

sigh. i feel bad that i feel so impoverished even if we can afford to buy things. my dad's tired, he has to have a long vacation. i wanna make him happy and my family happy. :(

so help me god

dear life, you kinda suck now. first my sisters are being a bitch. all of them. sometimes, i just wanna give up being their sisters... i can live without them. all of them suck. they need something from me and all of them have to be sooooo demanding.

can't i have my life? my life needs to be for them all the time. what happened to living for myself?

i got drunk and cried the whole night 2 nights ago. and i woke up the next day thinking i was already dead.

dear life, you are so demanding and challenging.

i was able to regain my energy when i saw kliff young and i knew that my life is in manila. a while ago, i felt like blogging. pero haha. okay biglang kausap ko na pinsan ko. so tinamad na ko.

but ya. after quite a long conversation with a relative, i realized... it's time to say goodbye to my past.

so bye bye now! will never see you again

watched the king's speech. so nice talaga. this is the second time i watched it.

here's an excerpt--which i also liked--of Shkespeare's Caliban that was mentioned in the movie

Be not afeard. The isle is full of noises,

Sounds, and sweet airs, that give delight, and hurt not.

Sometimes a thousand twangling instruments

Will hum about mine ears, and sometime voices,

That if I then had waked after long sleep

Will make me sleep again; and then in dreaming

The clouds methought would open and show riches

Ready to drop upon me, that when I waked

I cried to dream again.

<3 <3 <3

by the way, exactly a week from now, i'll be marching for my college graduation. can't wait! wow finally, a diploma with a degree.

stay happy people!
life doesn't suck, you just think it does.

-roma

kliff and roma <3

dear blog, everything is well. seriously, ever since 2011 started, every day keeps getting better with kliff young, and i'm so happy right now.i really am.

right now, i am just hoping that things will be better til forever ends.

I LOVE KLIFF YOUNG

that, i am sure of