there are things people just have to say...

it's done.

from now on, i know i can truly be happy--happiness that will last forever.

with my love
with my family
with my friends

i am moving on

it's a bit early for this..

but goodbye 2009. hello 2010!

as part of the tradition...

let me thank the 18 people that contributed a lot in my 19th year of living!
1. Stephanie D.
2. Francine Q.
3. Clariza M.
4. Germain A.
5. Denise N.
6. AJ P.
7. Krista B.
8. Dominic A.
9. Francis G.
10. Armand D.
11. Ellen A.
12. Eugene G.
13. Kurt Y.
14. Ceferino M.
15. Jerlyn M.

and the three biggest parts of this year

16. Anne J.
17. Celynn M.

and

18. Kliff Y.


it is time to forgive, let go and move on.

i miss my mom

i bet my life wouldn't have this drastic change if my mom hadn't died.
i wish i could still hug her just like how all the children i saw hugged their parents when they got their christmas gifts. i wish i could still talk to her just like how problematic people run to their moms. i wish i could still see her, touch her and feel her.

wishes like these will never come true...

mom, if you are beside me or simply up there looking at me... can you visit me everyday in my dreams? i wanna talk to you again and just see you. after you died, there's just no one like you.. not even close to being you.

i saw some people cared... but they don't love me like you do...

i know that some of my friends envy me because i had you... but i envy them because they still have their moms and their dads..

everyday i feel like an orphan struggling to see my worth.

i love our family, but it broke up the moment you went away and right now i just feel alone... every single day.

i miss you mom.. you're just the best person i've known...
and i hate that i have to accept the fact that you're gone.. and i'm just talking to my memories of you

**In memory of Evelyn A. Magsumbol
The one who brought me to existence

let me forget everything and just forgive everyone. it sounds so religious.. but yah, i want to just forgive and forget coz i honestly don't wanna avenge for things done to me in the past... and i hate the feeling of remembering all those memories