I've been a bum since November 28, 2016. My dad literally cut off financial support right after I took my last bar examination, and it has been a struggle trying to get by each day. But surprisingly, I got by and I've been getting by since that day.
The bar exams took a toll on me. I got super depressed right after, and I'm still trying to figure out what's causing this depression. Well, to be honest, I have an idea on what's behind all these but I am not one to express it online. At least, I'm mature enough now not to let the world know what's been pissing me off (they're all now in my diary).
I've had too many realizations recently and I wonder if those are going to be helpful in the future. But to anyone reading this, I hope the following will be helpful:
1. You are going to be judged by the people who don't know you coz those who know you will never do that. So when this happens, try not to mind them. (I know it's hard, but they're not the ones who will be there for you at your worst so they're clearly unimportant and so are their opinions)
2. Remember the one who stayed with you when no one else did. Friendship is magical and that friend is clearly hard to find so appreciate them and let them know in small ways how grateful you are.
3. When you have a partner who always encourages you no matter how ridiculous your dreams are, do not let go of him. (Doing that is just plain stupid!)
There are more realizations when I return. But for now, as stated in Trainspotting: Choose Life!
