talk.
i need to know so many things.
how and why?
i need to know what you're thinking.

talk.
i need to talk to you
but why is it so impossible
for you to talk?

by roma magsumbol

just arrived from quezon. from tikboy's wake.

every time i look at him in the coffin.. i get confused. and it seems that i don't know anymore what to feel when someone's dead. ever since my mom died, i think the world has taught me to be numb and emotionless.

and now that i am back in manila. i had fights with my boyfriend and my sisters

sigh...

it's 3:51.. and up until now i can't sleep.. i'm just not too sleepy. and emotions seem to mix up inside me..

just a few hours ago i heard some devastating news. a cousin of mine just died. stabbed to death by some unknown killer who aimed at his heart. he was just 17 or maybe even younger. it was a shock to everyone and apparently up until now his mom and sister still don't know it.

to nicholas alilio III. to tikboy.


your smiles
your laughters
your face.
your thoughtfulness
and being polite will all be missed
you will be missed..

god, why now? what's your plan? it's too early for him that although i know he's happy there, he left people who will forever have a sad heart. and i wish whatever your plan is... the suspect will be discovered. i wish justice for him not just peace. he doesn't deserve this painful death

tikboy.. i love you..
and the I, together with all the NK2 and the whole Alilio, will miss you dearly

REST IN PEACE.